Lost...

I don't want to become,
Another book on the shelf,
I want to be  lost,
In a quest to find myself.

I want to be lost,
So that I can be found,
And reach a destination,
Not just wander around.

I want to redefine myself,
I want to recreate the world,
And not just sit listlessly,
Thinking about a dream world.

Dreams in my eyes.

After a very hectic month I have decided to post again. Blogging is my only stress buster and I can't survive without that. So here I  go again...

This lie has slowly become a part of me,

As  everyday I have played this game,

Trying to act as if it doesn't hurt,

At each and every mention of her name.

Trying to trap this feeling inside of me

Pretending everyday that I have moved on,

Behaving as if the feelings that I once had,

For her have somehow miraculously gone.

I am spending each and every moment,

Surrounded by happiness and laughs

Trying to forget all those memories

And avoiding all our photographs.

But the last time  when I saw her,

After hours together when she left

My heart stopped beating for a moment.

Bound by a spell, I couldn't catch my breath.

That was  when the realization suddenly  hit me

As the tears started to flow from my eyes,

That even though so much time has passed,

I haven't let her dreams leave my eyes..