My heart's treasure..

Friendships should be treasured,and our friendship has been a special one.I shudder at the thought of losing it.

I cherish the memories of the times spent with you.I know I can come to you when I'm in trouble.I know you'll always be there to help me. I desire your company forever; a feeling of togetherness I've never known.I tried to build a wall around my heart,to restrict my feelings for you.Fearing the loss of our friendship,I suppressed my love for you.But now I am sure of my feelings.I know that our friendship will remain forever,beyond time and distance.I'll always be there for you,and you'll be there for me.No matter how it all turns out,I'll always be your friend.You should know how I feel.You deserve to know the truth.So now I am going to put my feelings in words :-

I respect you,

I admire you,

I trust you,

I adore you,

I love you.

You are a beacon of light in my otherwise dark life.You are my source of inspiration.You motivate me to be what I am.You occupy my dreams.With each passing day, I get more involved.The more I know you, the more I understand you;

and the more I understand you, the more I love you.

That thing called "Engineering"

"Engineers and Doctors are the foundation of the society."

Doctors healed the ailing and helped the suffering patients. Doctors were deemed as Gods during ancient times.

Engineers made human life easier with the help of machines. Engineers were also held in high esteem.

But now the scenario has changed and much more in case of engineers. It is no longer an exact science which it used to be. In fact, Engineering nowadays is the art of modelling materials we do not wholly understand, into shapes we cannot precisely analyze so as to withstand forces we cannot properly assess, in such a way that the public has no reason to suspect the extent of our ignorance.Engineering problems are under-defined, there are many solutions, good, bad and indifferent. The art is to arrive at a good solution. This is a creative activity, involving imagination, intuition and deliberate choice.

During ancient times if a builder built a house for a man and did not make its construction firm and the house collapsed causing the death of the owner of the house - that builder would be put to death. If it destroyed property, he would restore whatever it destroyed, and because he did not make the house firm he would rebuild the house which collapsed at his own expense. This was known as"The Code of Hammurabi". I read about this code in an article that emphasized on the "accountability" and "responsibility" of the Engineers and that precisely was what inspired me to write this small note.

"Accountability" and "Responsibility", both these have disappeared mysteriously from the dictionary of modern day engineers. Getting an engineering degree is almost as easy as getting bread from the bakery. Earlier engineering was a quest for knowledge, a desire for innovation and a charm for application, but now its all about money. Engineering standards have taken a big dip in the last decade and is rapidly going down. Considering the current trend it is only a matter of time when "that thing called engineering" will become extinct. It will remain as a word but will lose its meaning.

Sometimes the only thing you’re looking for, is the one thing you can’t see....

After a long interval I pick up my pen again (I should say keyboard) to write something. But I don't know why my thoughts are blocked and I'm unable to concentrate. What shall I write about? Surely there is no scarcity of topics. Friendship, life, books, the ongoing cricket world cup bla bla bla... And of course there is that evergreen 4 lettered word LOVE. I think I've written a lot along these lines and I don't want to be monotonous. So after thinking for only about 5-10 secs I've come to the conclusion that I will write whatever comes to my mind. Writing is my only stress buster.
Enough! I guess I've been beating about the bush. Half an hour ago I was standing on the terrace of my hostel and only one thought was bugging me. Am I satisfied with where my life is leading me to? I know I am the only person who can answer that but I honestly cannot answer that one question. I am nearing the end of my engineering career. I have a job. I know what I'll be doing in the next 3-4 years. Working, preparing for MBA, and once I complete my post grad again working. The same monotony, from which I now try to keep my blog free, will creep up again and this time in my life. Is that what I'm going to be doing all my life? Breaking my back to earn money. Sure enough money doesn't bring happiness though its something which can never be in abundance. I know anyone who reads this will recommend my name to a mental facility.
It's true that I appear to be very confused. I know I am searching for something. Something that brings meaning to my life. Some reason to break free from all shackles of sanity and self consciousness, to shun all rational thinking and becomes self-aware of my own existence. I had one such reason 2 years ago, but now I have none. There is a ray of light but it is very far from where I stand now.I've been looking all around for it but sometimes the only thing you’re looking for, is the one thing you can’t see. I seek refuge among books, I spend my time with friends, I enjoy myself to the brink, but the light eludes me. Lets see if can reach the end of the tunnel while the light lasts.

A trip down the memory lane....

Erich Segal and Me........

I first read Erich Segal's "Love Story" after my 10th boards. My first reaction was "What rubbish!! Such characters don't exist in real life". All that talk of love made me sick. I am a sensitive person but the line "Love means not ever having to say you're sorry." seemed a bit far-fetched. I decided I would never ever read Erich Segal again.

I wasted the next 2 years thanks to a lot of distractions. I read very few books during this period. After my 12th board I picked up another Erich Segal bestseller "The Class of 58". I loved this book a lot.I particularly related to the character of Andrew Elliot. A youngster who was unsure about what he really wanted from life. Andrew's biggest strength was his ability to make friends. I was so consumed by that book, I read it again.

Some time later I read another Erich Segal book "Doctors". The book bored me with its details about medical student's life. But the core of the book was the love story of Barney Livingston and Laura Castellano. The book described how their platonic friendship changed into love. It was beautifully described and I liked it a hell lot more than the unrealistic characters of "Love Story". After "Doctors" I read two more books of Erich Segal but I despised both of them. Something about the characters of "Doctors" and "The Class of 58" had struck a chord in my heart. I am not a fan of Erich Segal but every time I make a trip down the memory lane I know somewhere long the lines Erich Segal's books inspired me.

I Love You..

I cry because I love you,
I cry because I care,
I cry because I feel,
We have a love so rare.

I love you every minute,
I love you every day,
I even love you when we argue,
I love you when we play.

A Small Wish...

 
I wish I could tell you how I feel about you,
I wish I could tell you how much I love you.
I wish I could be with you all the time,
I wish I could say that you are mine.

I wish I could show you inside my heart,
I wish I could make you read my mind
I wish I could make you understand,
I wish I could say it all to you.

For you.....

When you feel you are all alone,
I will not buy you a rose,
I will not write you a prose,
I will be your shadow.
I will always stand by you.

When you are worried about something,
I will not crack jokes for you,

I will not bring cards for you

I will make you spill your heart out to me.
I will listen to you any time any day,

When you want to cry alone.
I will not get flowers for you
I will not sing songs for you,
I will be your shoulder.
I will always be there for you.